Stop Settling

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I woke up with a sense of guilt.

“I should be writing/reading/doing…” and all these things are in my notebook. Goals, objectives, to make me feel productive. But for some reason, motivation is absent, and all the momentum I built up in the past few days are just gone.

The aftermath is excuses.

“I have work in a few hours” or “I can always do things tomorrow”

The fallout is, not failure surprisingly, but stagnation.


I am the same person I was yesterday. And if I keep this up, tomorrow will be the same story.

I started this blog again because I wanted to keep up with the goals I set for myself at the beginning of the year. That when we moved cities, I will work on the things that held me back from my dreams and be better.

I have made progress for sure, but the creative goals are still unchecked.

I wanted to learn the harmonica. It's an instrument I bought years ago and have only played once. I have 3 graphic novel ideas that I have yet to write or draw. I have a screenplay that I have been building up in my head for sometime.

There is a lot.

Some would say that it’s not meant to be, it’s not for you, or that you should just be doing other things.

I say: fuck that.

In the past three years, I managed to shed off so many bad habits that kept me ordinary. Because everybody else was trading time for money, everybody else bought unnecessary shit, everybody else is scared shitless of taking risks. I started valuing my time and self, and I took risks that most people would never do. I learned new skills that allowed for those risks, and because of that I am not like everybody else.

Everybody else can eat shit and settle, but not me.

This post is very personal, because I have met another plateau that needs breaking. This is why I write, and I’ll keep writing, I’ll keep reading, I’ll keep trying new things, collect experiences.

If you find yourself in a similar place, break comfort, try something new. What are you afraid of?

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